Finally....something.

Trembling emotions,

simplest pleasures,

sealed with

the epiphany

of a kiss.

Awakened

by rapture.

Held by

passions unknown

to my

infant heart.

Struck by

love's

blinding

spell

I am

dumbfounded

by uninvited

emotion.

What an

evil threat

love is!

To strike

upon my

unguarded

heart

with such

blind sensations.

No warnings

to heed,

I am

enchanted.

A lunatic

under

the spell of a man.

Lost in

your eyes,

mesmerized

by the

maddening

echo of

your voice.

Surreal

twighlight

dreams

of spending

forever

in rapturous

bliss...

There are those

who are searching,

seeking...

Desperately

in vain

to have

just a

taste

of love...

The magical

poison

that captured

my vacant

heart.

When love

found me,

kicking and

screaming....

Pleading for

the old familiar

numbness to

rush back into

the core of my

soul.

I was afraid.

I was lost...

but didn'tgive up.

Slowly,

The light

embraced me,

welcoming me,

into the warmth

of new emotions

divine.

Now I am

grateful to have

love in my life.

And you,
you have my heart.

And

now,

I am

grateful to

have you

in my life.

~ jenny ~

Holy Bejeebers!

23 places in ONE friggin day! Where I've applied so far:

Safeway

Coldstone

T.G.I.Friday's

Target

Pet-Co

Petsmart

Molly Maid

Blockbuster

Hollywood Video

Startech

King Soopers

Albertsons

Noodles and Comp.

McDonald's (urgh)

Subway

Walgreens

The Buckle

Radio Shack

T-Mobile

JC Penney

Kohl's

Ross

Outback Steakhouse

The places I need to go to:

Cinemark 16 at the Greeley Mall

Johnny Carinos

Olive Garden

Buffalo Wild Wings

Michael's

I'm trying my best not to get discouraged...it's only been about two days. But honestly, I hate this process. I hate doing stupid redundant applications online. They're pointless and yes, I do believe that Jenny is being negative right now. But oh well. All I can say is that all this crap better pay off really soon because I want that damn kitten.

~ jenny ~

The Cutest Thing

The CUTEST kitten I've ever seen.

This is killing me....GOO! I have words in my head....they are there....and I can't get them out in a way that they'll make sense. DOWN WITH WRITER'S BLOCK! I will go to bed right now and in the morning, there will be a poem written if it's the last thing I do. I'm serious....these words can't live inside my head for forever.
~ jenny ~

Jenny's Sunday Project

Our bed is finally made! YAY!
Believe me, THIS is an improvement from what it was before. Yes, Rich...the cute little teddy bear is indeed Joe's. Haha....no. But this is the area where it was the worst.
The living room! Yep...I rocked that part of the house too. I know, I know...I'm amazing. It didn't take too long to clean the floor and dust...so it wasn't that impressive but it's a lot more livable now.
Yes...it really is....the FLOOR! Wow, THAT'S what it looks like! *astonished face* Our clothes covered pretty much the entire space in front of the closet...I had unpacked my bag as quickly as possible and through everything around (I had every intention of cleaning our room the next day...it just didn't happen right away)....Joe really has no excuse.
Believe me, ONE pop can is nothing compared to the collection that was accumulated while I was in Texas.

Yes, so...that's what I did for the majority of the day. I have been telling myself and promising Joe for the last couple days that I would start cleaning and get everything organized...but I honestly lacked the motivation that it would take. But I finally sucked it up and did it this afternoon.

So...I have finally gotten to talk to people that I haven't talked to in ages! It's awkward...but good. I've missed the guys...I honestly have.

I need to go. Have a good night!

~ jenny lynn ~

Austin

This is my nephew, Austin. See! I told ya'll I'd put a picture of him up here eventually. So there.

I have something on my mind...I just honestly don't know what it is. I thought I did...but I don't. This is such an odd mood to be in. Goo.

~ jenny ~

The Greatest Thing Ever

Joe said it the other night. The fact that I left and came back...and everything went back to the way that it was before. Nothing has changed...it's perfect and I love him more than I ever have. I never knew what it was like to look at someone and know that you loved them more than you did yesterday. It's crazy how it happened. We've had some times that I honestly would never trade for the world. I look at him and my heart truly smiles. He gets me and that is more than I can ever ask for. How is it that I can be so damn lucky?

Tomorrow I absolutely have to get the motivation to do all the things that I need to. I SWEAR that I'm going to. Things are going to get done around here:
1. Clean bathroom
2. Clean our room
3. Clean downstairs
4. VACCUUM (ha! I don't know how to spell it)
5. Take my girl for a walk
6. Call mom at some point
7. Get a newspaper and start applying all over again
8. I've got nothing...

Okay. That's my to-do list. It's gonna get done it is. Meh. I probably should go take a shower and settle down for the evening. *smiles* Good night and whatnot. Talk to ya'll later.

~ jenny ~

A Picture of My Mother...

This is my mom. I forgot to post it with the other new pictures.

I have been slacking BIG time...

...and for that, I apologize. I suck at life...I know. How long was I in Texas for? Um...not quite a month. I left on the 30th of May and I got back on Tuesday (June 20th). I wouldn't be up so early this morning if Symmie hadn't called me...but oh well. I got plenty of sleep last night. It was glorious. To start off, I will fill you in on the last couple of days...and then, I will go back and recap a couple of things that happened in Texas.

I left Texas on Monday night at 6:30 pm with Symmie, Symmie's mom (aka D), Drax, two dogs, and a friggin' snake. I forgot my fish that my mom bought me (which makes me a little sad) but now that I think about it...where the hell would I have put that thing? Phoenix (the car) was very much cramped. Symmie is moving back up to Idaho so we had the majority of their stuff crammed in everywhere it could fit. Awkward, yet fun at the same time. We were in San Antonio when we got a flat tire...yikes. All I have to say is thank God for the ghetto car jack *laughs*, Andrew and the two old guys that stopped to help. Joe had no idea that I was coming home (well, at least I didn't tell him). He thought I would be coming home within the next couple weeks...so I was bursting with this secret. I wanted to tell him SO bad...it's incredible. Anywho, we were on the road again...no mishaps a long the way. We reached HOME at 6:20 pm and I ran inside to surprise my Joe. The look on his face when I walked through the door was priceless. He was speechless for a few seconds and then, there was much rejoicing. Oy. Andrew was the only one who knew I was coming home and it was so hard to scheme behind Joe's back because that boy sure knows how to ruin Christmas. Or maybe, Andrew and I have to learn how to be better schemers. I said goodbye to Symmie, D, and Drax and they were off. And I kept repeating that "I'm home!" You have no idea how happy and excited I was to be back. My heart is still smiling. So...I've pretty much fallen back into the old routine. I have some cleaning to do this morning and then, job searching...but it feels so good to be back. I'M HOME!

Now...the hard part. Describing the things in Texas. To put it bluntly, there is an overwhelming number of stupid people in Canyon Lake. It's amazing that they still have an ability to function as a community. I encountered hateful, spiteful, rude, and unwelcoming people more than once and more often than I ever have in my life. It was pretty sad. My brother, Andrew was a complete jackass to me the entire time I was down there. He became the "baby" when I went to live in Colorado so I guess he felt threatened by my return. So, he treated me very unkindly and hardly even directed conversation at me. Instead, he would direct comments/questions about me to other people when I was standing there...it was kinda like I was invisible. His group of friends were pretty retarded...apparently, they are part of the "IT" crowd and I was invited to be part of it too. But I guess the price that you have to pay when you're a girl in this group is to be passed around so every guy can have a go with you. Great, huh? I guess they have nothing better to do than to pass around STDs. *shakes head* I've never been so insulted in my life. It was almost comical how the guys knew that I was already taken, yet they tried to convince me that "he'll never know" and that I could still sleep with them and they'd keep my secret. I guess they didn't realize that if I chose to sleep with them, even if Joe would never know, *I* would. And I couldn't live with that. I felt incredibly awkward around everyone in that group... I mean, they would drink and smoke pot and me? Ha. The "good" girl never drinks... so I would be sitting in the corner with a nonalcholic beverage and praying that I wouldn't be noticed. Talk about GOOD times...no, not really. Eventually, I stopped hanging out with them and avoided them at all costs...it was altogether pointless being around people who I hated anyways.

I found that even though they said that they were excited to have me down there, they weren't so much. Which kind of sucked. My mom and I spent some time together and I found that she's a great person. She is pretty much the glue that holds everyone and the world together. She left last Wednesday to visit my sister in Washington, and things went to crap almost instantly. But she's a good pretender...there are several lessons that I learned from her down there that I will never be able to forget or really talk about. My "stepdad" is a complete redneck and I don't care too much for him. He goes back on his word a lot...and I mean A LOT. I was able to witness how much he treats my mother like dirt, how much he doesn't really like any of my brothers, and how quickly he will turn on someone. I'm used to it...so it didn't really bug me nearly as much as it probably would have a long time ago. I didn't get to see much of Josh because he was only there for a couple of days before having to report back to his post. But he's decent (and that's saying a lot), even though he can be an ass at times and he treats Symmie and Drax like they don't matter. Lori is a whole rant and I don't want to get into it. Jared and Symmie are the two most real people in my family. They are straightforward and honest and exactly what I needed. If it weren't for them, or at least Symmie, I don't know what I would've done...

I went to Texas in search of some answers to my past. I found some of them...the others are probably never going to get answered...and you know what? That's okay. My trip didn't necessarily go the way that I had "planned" but I'm okay with that. I am back to where I belong. I belong with Joe. This is where I'm the happiest and my heart smiles the most. I'm a little disapointed with how things turned out...but that's the way things are and there is no changing them. At least I can't wonder "what if" anymore. And I can honestly thank God that I wasn't raised there...I just might have ended up like several people I met...and I'm perfectly happy with the person I am today. So yeah.

Alright. I think that's it. It's so good to be home. To be absolutely certain that the people I am surrounded by love me, amusing and annoying quirks and all. It's an incredible feeling. Believe me.

I'm out. Talk to ya'll later. Bye.

~ jenny ~

Pictures!

This is Lily. Technically, she belongs to Joe...but she loves me more. Ha. I figured if I had a picture of Bo on this page...to be fair, I better put Lily on here too. Only, I couldn't find a different one...and she wouldn't stand still for me to take another. So, this is Lily undercover.

This is how the "rednecks" do it in Texas! We were having a water fight in the backyard with our other nephew, Austin (his picture will be here in a couple days) and Drax wanted in on the action. He LOVES water. He saw the bucket full of water and climbed in. It was his way of telling his mommy and daddy that he wanted a REAL swimming pool...which he got several days later.
Hear no evil...Drax was chilling in the backseat of the car on the way to New Braunfels and when I looked back, this was what he was doing. Crazy kid. Cute, though. Very cute.
My baby boy, Bo. I know he's randomly in the middle of the pictures of Drax...that's just the way it happened. I can't wait to get this puppy back home! I miss him and yes, he is way cooler than he looks.
And Drax...sleeping after a long adventure of shopping. This kid was the source of my entertainment in Texas...I followed him constantly with a camera or my cell phone video...what can I say? I'm a proud aunt. He's honestly one of my favorite kids in the world...and his parents aren't so shabby themselves.

Mi Familia

So...my family. Where to start? They are some crazy people... but it's a good crazy, I guess. Nothing like I'm used to. Symmie is amazing and I love being around her. We're going to watch Brokeback Mountain in a couple minutes...hahaha yeah. My mom is absolutely incredible... I went to visit her at work today and she was introducing me to everyone that was possible. My brother, Josh and his wife, Lori are pretty cool...Josh leaves in a couple of days. My neices, Kerrighan and Morraghan are cute. Morraghan is a lot like me in so many ways... it's terrifying. Yikes, a little Jenny running around... Andrew is going to take a little work to get to know... And Drax, oh my gosh! I love this kid! I already want to keep him... but Symmie won't let me (neither will Joe). I have a couple of videos that I took of him on my cell phone that I'm going to try to post on here later tonight. He's a cutie and I absolutely adore him.

I get to see Austin soon ! YAY!

The cat, Normal hates me. I've been stealing some of her kittens to hold every now and then...and she doesn't appreciate it. I plan on not touching them anymore...until they're a little bit older. Joe says that I can keep one and bring it home... I'm just going to have a hard time deciding which one.

Alright, the movie (and Symmie) calls. I'll update the videos later. Bye ya'll.

~ jenny ~