Not Ready To Make Nice

This is a really odd mood to be in. I'm really wanting to go skate. I mean, I have to let this frustration out somehow, right? I don't even really want to talk about what's bugging me but I know, eventually I'm gonna have to. GOO!

Don't get me wrong, I know that I'm not the most attractive person ever. I KNOW that....but honestly, when I looked at her and realized that they were kept for a reason...how am I supposed to compete with THAT? Honestly. How? Am I not supposed to feel a little threatened by an old memory? True, it's a memory and I shouldn't be scared of it...but I am. I don't even know what I should feel right now. Maybe I shouldn't have looked. Okay, so I know that I probably shouldn't have looked and I feel bad about it. A LOT bad. But honestly...what now? Should I just act like I don't know?

~ Jenny ~

p.s. On a much happier and non-related subject: I get Bo for the weekend! *insert much joyous dancing here* I'm not gonna lie, I'm very excited.